I'm disappointed in myself. . .I was a little conflicted about my resolution. . .but now I'm going to clear the air (no pun intended!) -- and my head.
I'm super excited about my resolution. . .and totally scared out of my wits that I won't be able to do it. I feel a little modest about it and think maybe I should just do it quietly. . .but I want to tell the whole world and see how many people can make a change for our environment. I don't want to be righteous or make others feel guilty. . .but I want others to think about how their actions change mother nature for our children. So what prompted all of this?
Last week I told Renae (one of L's teachers) about my resolution because I think it's likely something will go wrong at some point and we will be delayed for drop-off or pick-up time. . .and let's face it -- a mom dropping off her kid by foot in the rain is a little bizarre. I was completely unprepared for Renae's response. She immediately supported me with such enthusiasm and even made her own commitment to bike home from school every day in May!!! In addition, she's planning to use only recycled materials this week for art and is scheduling a garden clean-up for Earth Day! By the way, her bike home is over NINE miles!!! I was overwhelmed by her! She is the first - and only - person to tell me about a commitment to change after reading my blog. Tears came to my eyes when I read the e-mail she wrote telling me this! I jumped up and down telling my husband that not just a ripple but a tidal wave is coming out from this pebble! Then the next day when I saw her I made her feel bad. She was so pumped up by both her new resolution and mine and she wanted to get the entire school involved and was dreaming about what a HUGE change we could all make together. . .and I backed down. I felt embarrassed and wasn't sure I want the whole school to know about the "strange" idea I have.
I've been stewing about this all week and finally, after a restless night, came to this conclusion:
Lots of people aren't going to like what I'm doing or writing. Most of my family doesn't even believe in the greenhouse effect or the problem with pollution and they think what I'm doing is very weird. Some people might feel guilty. I have been and will be criticized either to my face or behind my back for this. BUT, all of this is okay because I believe in my heart that what I'm doing is going to make a positive change. Telling the whole school or the whole community or the whole country might not change some people - but let's give all people the opportunity to change and my belief that they can!
So good-bye "on-the-fence" Kim because I'm going to say it for the first time here and I'm going to keep saying it out loud and in writing: I want everyone to join me in making a change - because it's the right thing to do and I know you can.
There - I said it! This is how I feel and I'm not going to be ashamed about it. Thank you Renae! :) Let's do it!
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